Today is the
day when I am heading back. Back but still somehow away. Leaving England for
the Netherlands was an important journey for me. All glory to my fabulous
school in England, which I love and are in many ways perfect for me. However,
the thrill and the feeling of being in the central part of Europe brought
something unique. It is as cliche as everyone says: "it suddenly felt like
the world was at my feet"— like it would obey me at my every whim. The
distance had no say in my decisions of what I wanted to explore or experience,
since it was practically no distance going anywhere.
multiple destinations in the Netherlands, Belgium, Italy and a 12 hour drive
through Europe. Workshops with Netherlands dance theater and Marina Mascarell,
performance with Vloeistof as intro to the Dutch National Ballet. Gaining 20
admission tickets from various performances. Biking on my third hand bike
anywhere (even when it snowed). Becoming friends with a crazy gang. Trying to
learn some of the Dutch language (let’s just say that I know a couple of
words). Seeing me and my artistry not just as something practiced in
physicality, but also in personality and future goals. Agreeing. And not agreeing
with people. And realizing that it is actually also fine.
It might be bittersweet to head back to the "normal" life in England. To not
have the eagerness of a short time limit to my adventures, that it is somehow:
"now or never". Time pressure Ive come to realize is sometimes a
great stimulus. However, I do feel that the sensation of me "locking up
the door to the world" wont just disappear. It will stay with me and
enhance my studies. The experiences and the thought processes it has triggered
will keep on giving me the inspiration I need for my further studies. I will
probably receive and make use of the education way more now as opposed to if I
wouldn’t have done the Erasmus exchange.
Therefore I will
now say (for the official school start on Monday): New adventures await and I
will eagerly see where they can take me!
To follow my
journey in pictures: @matildabjarum on instagram.
Matilda Bjärum Bengtsson